Saturday, June 28, 2003

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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hehe...i knew it. no wonder i liked this character so much.


LOVE is your chinese symbol!


What Chinese Symbol Are You?
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Hmm..ok. im impressed.



the lass reminisces at 12:34:00 AM [comment]

she is falling low.find her escape.

Friday, June 27, 2003

Not again..yet again

shlda known better than tt. friday..where else besides Hendrix AGAIN?
was planning on a hangout or pubbing. but da kutus insisted on clubbing. sheesh!
However wasnt too bad thou. shared a jug w/ angie n nicole. Vodka red bull- 60 bucks.
Sucha ripoff. -sulks n pouts-
Lotsa ppl were there. had hella fun.
Suko dearie was wasted. n i mean totally! she was dancin w/ pearl to bring down da highness.
Birthday gal wasted. hehe ;p
Had a lil' of my problem-fucked-up attitude again w/ baby.
Nt tt i want to...but i just cant help it.
Maybe its good tt sch hols r gonna be over.
tt means less seeing of him...maybe this will improve our relationship..hopefully.
Joanne was there. felt like a lil of a bitch yest. danced in front of her w/ justin to spite her!
felt really good. hehe.
Danced w/ a few guys. baby said he didnt mind.
however someone I danced w/ sorta brougth back feelins i once had for him.
Sweet person. very sweet. wish him luck w/ this other gal ;p hehe.contradicting.
hmm..was behavin like a slut thou yest.cant be bothered either.
many unhappy things happened at hendrix... painkiller painkiller...
but all's good now. ;p
Headed home after supper at Golden cafe.

Shoutout to kelvin: uncle...dont rush. take things slow. da world isnt gonna end soon, neither r u. =)

Went out w/ kel on Wednesday.
baby was upset kelvin went out w/ me.
sigh..i didnt tell him i was meetin his friend.
but it was meant to be a secret coz' he was going to meet this gal later.
silly stuoid n not worth it.. -rolls eyes-
went window-shoppin w/ kel. it was fun.
like shopping w/ a gf. haha.
Was at Morgan, liked a few tops fr there. cost a bomb thou.
anyone nice enough to buy for me? -prweety pee-lease-
Chose a top for kelvin..it was nice. he looked good. very matured n nice =)
Not bad thou, he can pull off da 'ricky martin' look haha! inverted commas take note.
saw a nice black top. casual yet formal. plan to get it for baby ;p
he'll look hot provided tt he works out a six pack over there. -waits n dreams-
Then we headed to topshop! saw this really nice mini skirt.
looked a lil jap style la,,,49 bucks. decided to get thongs instead.
buy two get1 free!! lol hehe. got these 3 really nice ones.
eveyrone said they were kinky n yummy.. ooow.

I headed to Katong village to meet da rest while kelvin stayed on to wait for whoever to end work.
had lots to eat..cost me quite a bit..but all was worthwhile -beams-
shared a plate of seahum, stringray n 4 bottles of beer w/ nicole baby.
man..it was GOOD. sadly..da promotion for 4bottles for 10bucks will end on monday. -sulks n pouts-
took da last bus home. knocked out immediately on reachin home.

Phuture- da blast

Nicolas's birthday. celebrated it at zouk.
loaned karen's id. did nt have any resemblence at all.
made it thru da checkin id point.
However...was fuckin nervous n unconfident.
Smoked n wiped off tt unconfident look.
Excited...it was time to party.
Everyone looked good. angie was da WILD card. =p
was at phuture da whole time...
da other gals at zouk.
Den the gals went home early..n i was left alone w/ da guys ;(
had fun thou. was dancin like there was no tmr.
sulty moves i'd have to say.
Gracie disappeared w/ some guy.
approached to dance by a couple of guys. rejected them becoz of baby.
sorta regretted..they were sooooooooo cute!!! -heart thumps-
but oh wells...had fun dancin w/ baby.
had a lil small arguement thou' but was ok in a swift.
Was approached by this gal. her friend wanted to know me.
cute. apparently i turned him down for my num.
only to realise he's a regular..n on good terms w/ da bouncers n manager.
'Hmmm...' i thot. so i got gracie to get his num for me.
man its embarrassin to get da num of someone u rejected. -sticks out tongue-
she got me da num. baby's knows about it too..told him.
i know im sucha bitch. hah!
club closed.
Surprisingly i wasnt drunk. hehe..;p
were outside da club..decidin what to do next.
Goondo shaun n rest...chattin away da whole time.
left me fustrasted.
in da end i went home..shared cab w/ kel.
baby went home. da rest to golden cafe.
it was fun....in a longgggg time.



Where Is The Love

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how a n**** works and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)









the lass reminisces at 11:31:00 PM [comment]

she is falling low.find her escape.

Wake-up call- still important to me

It's 12.30 now. just had lunch. yummy.
2 sunny side-ups, kailan, curry fish head w/ lady fingers(jealous shaun?) and lotus soup.
It's nt da lazy usual me to get up ard 10 durin da hols.
But....something uneventful took place.
A nightmare.. tt was what got me jumpin outta my bed.
To some of u, a nightmare is nothing. jus a dream, no worries.
But every dream or nightmare means something.
It's very significant to me. Like a reminder or a warnin sign to tell me what is goin on in my daily life.
Lazy as i am, its too tedious to put my dreams on paper
when draggin myself outta bed is a difficult task itself. (im supposed to record my dreams)
Well, this nightmare 'woke me up', made my come in touch w/ my feelins n senses more clearly.
It's concerns da close ppl ard me.(it's very dramarama...-rolls eyes-)
Here goes...

somehow da scene appeared when Gracie was attacked by this female ghost
n was killed in this room in a tall buildin w/ hundreds of storeys. (shockin..i knowx2)
when i found out bout this, i was shocked.
Bein da 'clever' detective i decided to investigate..and destroy da ghost.
(sounds like some 'wu xia pian')
There were ard 50 ppl w/ me, to name a few..shaun..nicole..angie.
cant rem da rest. Shaun was wearin his green shirt he wore to hendrix..was talkin non-stop. bleahz!
All of us tried to enter da room of da tall buildin by climbin in coz it was a restricted area.
i was climbin up da wall by da use of those steel grips tt were attached to da wall.
However, i was spotted by 1 of da guards..n i tried hidin. but cld nt.
His laser gun was pointin at me..so i jumped down into da long grass tt camouflaged me.
his laser was pointin at me..but i managed to escape.
den he fired..n a big patch of land was empty..
in my heart..i thot to myself.. i cld have died if i was an inch nearer.
Somehow..all of us managed to get into da room.
it was dark..da air still. we cld see da silhouette of a lady by da window.
scene changed.
we were in small grps of circles singing to keep ourselves calm.(ok i know it's stupid)
den beside me was this guy (cant rem).
da ghost was jus above his head, to make things worse, her legs were facin upwards
n her head jus above da guy's. we cld sense somethign him but we darent look.
shaun was on da other side of me. we were starin sideview n continued
singing thou' we were scared outta our wits.
then da ghost suddenly caressed da guy's face n suddenly vanished.
I swear her face was horribl-scary.. but her hands looked soft n smooth (weird)
scene changed.
da ghost had long hair w/ white strands. she was lyin on da bed.
we walked past her. she looked calm n jus watched as we walked past.
she had this confident n evil look on her face..it made me shiver.
we tried ways n means to get out but da whole place was sealed up.
however, we came to a window tt had grills n a lock.
(funny but all da tools we needed were just there)
we managed to break da n open da windows grills.
but fr da room to da window..there was a gap which had this hot metal piece.
somehow i managed to squeeze to da side to get some wooden planks so we cld walk across.(a scene fr charlie's angels..wooden planks)
Fearful of supernatural as always, i was da first to jump out.
da room was on da top floor,buildin w/ hundreds of storeys,amazingly i managed to jump down w/o any injury. (siderman comes in here)
when i reached dagrd floor, i saw shaun n some others.
walked over to ask where was angie.before he cld say anything..
i heard a loud blast fr behind. i turned ard...
da spirit of da ghost had destroyed when it hit da grd.(dont ask me how's tt possible)
follwed by angie's soul...(weird) but at tt moment..i felt everything takin place so slowly..
i cld here da seconds tickin away..n i was heartbroken. i cld feel my heart shatter.
it was very painful. like jus in a sec..angie is outta my life FOREVER.
she sacrificed herself...
as i ran across to reassure what happened, this huge truck came my way.
i nearly died if i didnt avoid it in time. it crashed into da building.
scene changed.
there was this party to commemorate my frinedship w/ angie.
eveyrone was there...smilin n all.
i was at this table w/ all my friends.
One guy was tellin a joke..n made everyone laugh.
I tried to tell myself tt angie wasnt here anymore...n i just have to continue w/ life.
but i cldnt...
i imagined her beside me..tellin stupid dumb jokes as usual..makin everyone laugh.
we were both dressed in da same suit..da visor sailors wear..n blue n white sailor uniform.
both of us had our hair tied in 2 plaits. we had quite long hair thou'
it felt so warm as i imagined her beside me joking so happily.
but in a flash...my hallucination was gone.
i looked everywhere but i cldnt find her.
I was so devastated...n i was callin out to her everywhere but i cldnt find her.
at da instant...i felt so loney n lost. i didnt know what to do.

I was so terrified..i woke up fr my dream.
only to find my own tee soaked in tears..i was actually cryin in my sleep.
I sat up...tried to calm myself down..but da tears kept coming.
I phoned angie immediately to check if she was alright.
she thot something had happened..becoz i was cryin.
told her what happened..n she let out a sigh of relief nothing serious happened.
she suggested we shld go pray..n i agree too.

Im not sure what da nightmare meant. but it made me realise angie meant much more to me than i thot.
I can nv imagined what will happen if i lost her.
It was very painful.
angie didnt show any sign of appreciation of our friendship..
but baby she wanted to cheer me up. maybe she did.

readin this may nt sound anythin scary or heart-breakin
coz' i cant put into words what disaster tt took place in my dream.
if u dreamt it yrself..u cld understand what hurt im feelin.
the shock n upsetness.so great.
well it made me realise tt i shld treasure my friendship more now.

Shoutout to angie: darlin...u mean a lot to me. u're da bestest friend i cld have. lotsa differences n misunderstandings we may have, but at da end of da day, u are still just as important to me. I may say some nasty things in a fit of anger, but i dont mean them.I care for u tt's why i bother n dare to tell u some unpleasant things to ur face tt others wldnt.im nt afraid tt i wld lose becoz of da things i say to u, becoz i will nv do anything to hurt u nor risk our friendship. u may think im just addin oil to da fire, but im doing it for ur own good.No matter what happens, even in da future if we lose contact or end our friendship, remember tt no other friend can replace u. luv ya lots!!

Shoutout to others: thou i may nt have dreamt of u in sucha sorry state, it doesnt mean tt u guys dont mean anything to me. u guys r just as important. w/o u guys..i wldnt be so happy n cheerful. i wld be a lonely person. what u do to me or say does affect me in every way. Whatever may become of us, u guys will always have a place in my heart. ;p



the lass reminisces at 10:41:00 PM [comment]

she is falling low.find her escape.

Thursday, June 26, 2003

Good...
Da damn page reset.
and now da post i spent an hr bloggin is gone!!!
urgh!
Update tmr...
sheesh

the lass reminisces at 10:35:00 AM [comment]

she is falling low.find her escape.

Tuesday, June 24, 2003

Name: Jannyfer
Do you like it?: it's alright. tho' some ppl think i changed da spelling on purpose. -_-
Nicknames: janniboo bitch doinkyfer
Screen name: jannyfer janniboo
Birthday: 09121986
Sign: saggitarius
Location: Katong. opp St Pats...NO cute guys...
School: too ashamed of it. MJR sec.
Status: Attached to a wonderful guy.
Crush: too many....
Natural hair color: brown
Current hair color: dark caramel brown
Eye color: brown
Height: 1.6....i need height gainer.
Birthplace: KK women's i think...tts what justin says.
Shoe size: 6++ - 7 BIG FEET.



[ family ]


Parents : Dad-William ,died from cancer. Mom-rosaline, no matter how hurt i made her...she stills loves me nonetheless.
Siblings: Mingo,25 Kelvin,19 Mingwei,14 -luv em bros all.
Live with: Mom,3 bros,wonderful maid n darling pooch.
Favorite relative: cousins fr mom's side of da family


[ favorites ]


Number: 02
Color: Baby blue.
Day: Friday....hendrix!!
Month: December..duh!
Song: he's unbelievable, what the world needs now.
Movie: Finding Nemo...i love squirt n dorii!
Food: yoshinoya.
Band: lil' kim
Season: Autumn
Sport: ice-skatin, tennis.
Class: teacher-prankin class. hehe
Teacher: er....cant think of any
Drink: aloe vera peach!
Veggie: all except garlic,ginger n onion.
TV Show: F.R.I.E.N.D.S
Radio Station: perfect10
Store: Guess mango levis
Word: huh
Animal: my pooch!
Flower: sunflower
State: NY


[ this or that ]


Me/You: urs
Coke/pepsi: coke...good for mixers. lol
Day/night: night.
Aol/aim: aim
Cd/cassette: cd.
Dvd/vhs: dvd
Jeans/khakis: i like both.
Car/truck: how bout a bike?
Tall/short: tall
Lunch/dinner: breakfast,lunch n dinner + supper.
NSYNC/BSB: i'd prefer marilyn monroe to these..sheesh.
Gap/Old Navy: im in love w both! old navy more tho.
Silver/Gold: Silver.


[ love and relationships ]


Do you have a bf/gf?: a sweety at tt.
Do you have a crush?: i dont have A crush, i have crushES.
How long have you liked him/her?: they all range.
Why do you like this person?: of coz they're hot!
If you're single... why are you single?: coz im nt hot?
If you're not single... give details...: coz im hot?
How long was your longest relationship?: 1 year 3 mths 2days
How long was your shortest relationship?: half a day.
Who was your first love?: cant even rem.
What do you miss about him/her?: i cant rem either.



[ the past ]


What is the one thing you would change about your past?: stop being so naive.
Last thing you heard: Angel by amanda perez
Last thing you saw: Me in da mirror.
Last thing you said: ok bye.
Who is the last person you saw?: bro
Who is the last person you kissed?: justin
Who is the last person you hugged?: justin
Who is the last person you fought with?: justin
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: gracie
What is the last TV show you saw?: American idol
What is the last song you heard?: Angel.....-_-


[ the present ]


What are you wearing?: denim top n jeans.
What are you doing?: rushin to go out.
Who are you talking to?: no one.
What song are you listening to?: gotta get thru this.
Wants: get out
Where are you?: bros room
Are you online?: yep
How are you feeling?: giddy.
Are you in a chatroom?: yep


[ future ]


What day is it tomorrow?: wed
What are you going to do after this?: meet my darlings
Who are you going to talk to?: gracie n her bf.
How old will you be when you graduate?: 17
What do you wanna be?: clubbaholic all my life..llol.
What is one of your dreams?: be a DJ.
Where will you be in 25 years: toilet..shitting?


[ have you ever ]


Drank?: yeap.
Smoked?: yeap.
Stolen?: yeap
Done anything illegal?: yeap
Wanted to die?: had thoughts
Hit someone?: yeap.


[ other ]


Do you write in cursive or print?: both.
Are you a lefty or a righty?: lefty.
What is your sexual preference? i'd love to try anything..lol
What piercings do you have?: 12 earholes, 8 tt have already closed. 1 navel n tongue. gonna get nose n eyebrow.
Any tattoos?: nt yet,... soon soon
Do you drive?: long way to go.
Do you have glasses or braces?: glasses
Did you like this survey?: i think its dumb but wth.
What do you most like about your body?: long legs?
How many fillings do you have?: 2
Do you think you're good looking?: nah
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: er....?
Do you look like any celebrities?: ugly cartoon characters..lol.


[ fashion ]


Do you wear a watch?: not anymore
How many coats and jackets do you own?: nt sure..a lot
Favorite pants color?: denim
Most expensive item of clothing?: Guess pants
Most treasured?: my clubbin tops
What kind of shoes do you wear: heels..slip ons..anything!

the lass reminisces at 3:08:00 AM [comment]

she is falling low.find her escape.

Monday, June 23, 2003

Natalie Portman


Wich Beautiful Hollywood Actress Are You?
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Angel

Its been 5 months, since you went away
Left without a word, nothing to say (nothing to say)
When I was the one who gave you my heart and soul
But it wasn't good enough for you, oh no, so I asked god

God send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel to wipe these tears from my eyes

And I know it might sound crazy,
But after all that I still loved you
You wanna come back in my life
But now there's something that I have to do
I have to tell the one that I once adored
That he cant have my love no mo
My heart cant take no more lies
And my eyes are all out of cries, so god

God send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
Cause all I do is cry (all I do is cry)
God send me an angel to wipe these tears from my eyes
(send me an angel)

Now you had me on my knees
Begging god please to
Send you back to me
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep
And you made me feel like I could not breathe
When I, all I wanted to do was feel your touch
And to give you all of my love (give you all of my love)
But you took my love for granted
Want my luvin now but you cant have it, oh god

God send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
Cause all I do is cry ( is cry)
God send me an angel to wipe these tears from my eyes

Ohh ohh god send me, god send me an angel
An angel
Wipe the tears from my eyes
Send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel, god send me an angel
From being in love
Send me an angel
Oh god
Send me an angel


the lass reminisces at 11:35:00 PM [comment]

she is falling low.find her escape.

Beer Beer Beer...n MORE

Damn! KATONG VILLAGE. 4 BOTTLES CARLSBERG ONLY $10!!
heehee. im one alcoholic-gonnabe. blame it on my lovely BC clique.
wot's a BC member if u dont drink? Hail BC family! Woohoo!
Tough on muh belly tho. Think our beer belly is gonna be our code. hawhawhaw.
Shaun neek eugene rach dil chris kel sebas baby n muhself were drinkin like nobody's Tai Ji.
Pity muh darling nicole n jocey wasnt there. Or it'd be much fun bitching!! hehe.
Had to leave early. Thot i had sch..but thot wrong. dumb dumb me.
reminds me. gotta catch dumb n dumberer.sounder be damn cocky.

Nicole- muh bitching, drinking n cocking girlie darling. Funny, cute...sweeeeeeeet. HUGE SLOPPY WET Muacx 4 u. ;p
Lub ya lots lots.

woke up at 10 plus today. thanx 2 my nicole...'wake up' call all.
hangover. due to da continuous boozing day aft day.
real bad. like zack said 'better stop drinkking.my liver hurts.' lol.
plus im spendin so much then da last time. bad bad. real bad.
dragged myself outta bed. decided to do my layout.
dont wanna drag anymore. too long away fr bloggin. cant take it. itchy fingers.
didnt turn out too bad. yum yum. but a lot to improve tho.

sigh. im as fustrated about da pics as u guys r.
i promised u guys. get me a scanner, anyone?
i've yet to scan pics of me n baby..not to say develop da pix.
plus gifts he got me....really sweet. luv ya darlin'!!!

got to town by 6 plus. supposed to meet nicole n joycey.
nic was over at her's. but we cldnt meet coz we had straight buses to town but neither
of our buses passed by each other's areas.
supposed to meet at wisma. but da dumb me cldnt figure out how to get to da
other side of da Taka building. so decided to meet da guys first but they were about to leave
for Katong. n I jus came from there!!!!
so near yet so far huh? nvm...i will see darling nicole tmr!! yuppiez.

hehe same old me...QUIZ TIME!!

haha.. doesnt sound very me tho.
well..depends. i might give it a go , u know.
-winks winks-



okok. this is really freakin me hot.
once is ok. but twice is..not so amusing.
-yuck-



u know wat? no more quizes for today.
this ass thingy is really threatening my existance.
bleah.


the lass reminisces at 10:05:00 AM [comment]

she is falling low.find her escape.

H.I.A.T.U.S no more

Hiatus? No way was I going Hiatus. Jeez.
Took me quite a while a set everything in place n typing again.
Finding da purr-fect layout was almost near-impossible.
Decided to edit one myself. Hee.

VERY VERY busy sch hols.
Been a bad gal...skipped almost all my hol classes.
Fuck it.Gonna get aft-sch punishment for this.
Been feeling insecure w/ baby but all's fine now.
Just needed to reconfirm what was going was.
He secured me. Good.
4 months now n still a long way to go.

Over da weeks, I was ensured of da true friendship tt I had w/ my buddies.
Got closer to those tt I hardly ever understood.
Closer to those tt already treasured my worthyness.

I pierced my tongue!~ hehe.
Mom's kinda over-reacting...n screwed me real bad.
I was planning to pierce ma nose, eyebrow n even tattoos!
Guess tt's got to wait...long.
But its ok. Baby's gonna get his eyebrow pierced.
Pictured him w/ it. Yummy.

Bought a lot of clothes over da hols.
Spent hundreds on BeBe, clubbing..n drinking!!
And oh, I have new coloured contact lenses! da blue triple shade. nice.
Nicole thot da blue looked nicer on me than da green.so yea..i followed her choice.

Hehe...
Got this from Nicole's(Ryann's gf) blog.

jannyfer Magic Number 15 Job Actor Personality Vicarious Temperament If I Lose It - Run Sexual Just Say No Likely To Win The Respect Of My Colleagues Me - In A Word Ditsy Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

Kinda bored. Quizzy time!!

What's your usual [mood]?
Im feelin kinda platonic now. hmmm...?


Are You Naughty or Nice?
Haha. ok.. Tt isnt bad issit??


Is the glass half full or half empty?




the lass reminisces at 2:59:00 AM [comment]

she is falling low.find her escape.